I think I have said this more than once over the past year but, now, I get it. I get why my mom would tell me every year what she was doing at each moment of my birthday how ever many years ago...IE. "At this time 15 years ago..". It has been the most beautiful year of my life. Yes, there have been stressors and anxieties but the gift we have been given and the love that has been brought to us is amazing. So here is my story of what happened 1 year ago on June 7, 2005.
I was two weeks overdue. She just wasn't coming. They decided to do the C-Section. I remember the day because we had to wait to call until that day to see what time I had to go in. So I woke up not knowing when I was to go. I had never been in the hospital so I was SO nervous. They told us to go after 4pm. The day was calming though because Matt and I just stayed together. Getting the house ready. I remember it being a warm day so the air conditioners were on and the shades were closed so it was peaceful in our house. I just remember being together. Sharing that excitement. So we went.
Matt will tell you that one of the funniest things was the night prior to them inducing me. It was sort of like a hotel stay. We got to order what we wanted from their special 'maternity' menu. They offered me food and then "something to help me sleep" as they were going to have me up at 5 am to start the medicine to induce my labor. I said "YES!". They literally gave me a shot in the butt and I was asleep not even 5 minutes later!
They started the medicine to induce my labor the next morning. My family was there. The contraction started. I clearly remember Matt being there and being so calm. Of course.
I remember my dad. He propped himself right next to me and would tell me when the contractions were coming as he had figured out by the printout when they were to come...a very DB thing to do. My mom was there, of course. I wouldn't have it any other way. My calming, caring spirit taking care of me and holding my hand.
Anyway, long story short (I could make this SO long). Ella was trying to come out but my body wouldn't let her so they decided to do the C-section. Everyone had just gone home from visiting and Matt had to call them back in.
The surgery was scary for me and I had all sort of weird reactions to the meds but Ella came out...well, they went and got her. And she was perfect. No squashy head. I didn't get to hold her until later in the night. That moment was perfect. A very personal moment. She was instantly my buddy.
Being home was the weirdest experience of my life. In the hospital, everyone takes care of you. The nurses were so caring and helpful. Now it was just Matt and I and A BABY! We had NO clue. But we did it. And I think we did it pretty darn well! (It's your family and it's the only one we've got so you have to do it well :)) We have a lot to learn but thanks to our families and our own common sense, we will do it.
There hasn't been a day that hasn't gone by that I haven't thanked God for that little being that is sleeping in her crib in the other room. She is an angel.
Tonight, Matt called me outside to look in the field next to our house. It was dark but the moon was out...almost full so it cast a beautiful glow over the field. Then suddenly there they were. A thousand lightening bugs! I said to Matt, "I bet this time last year they were here. We just didn't notice them and they were welcoming Ella to the world". I imagine it all happened like that. Like a thousand little fairies flying around speaking their secrets to her spirit and filling her full of hope and love and peace. That's a nice way to imagine the beginning of such a beautiful life. We are all so blessed. Happy Birthday Baby Girl!
6.06.2006
The Bean Story...
I think I have said this more than once over the past year but, now, I get it. I get why my mom would tell me every year what she was doing at each moment of my birthday how ever many years ago...IE. "At this time 15 years ago..". It has been the most beautiful year of my life. Yes, there have been stressors and anxieties but the gift we have been given and the love that has been brought to us is amazing. So here is my story of what happened 1 year ago on June 7, 2005.
I was two weeks overdue. She just wasn't coming. They decided to do the C-Section. I remember the day because we had to wait to call until that day to see what time I had to go in. So I woke up not knowing when I was to go. I had never been in the hospital so I was SO nervous. They told us to go after 4pm. The day was calming though because Matt and I just stayed together. Getting the house ready. I remember it being a warm day so the air conditioners were on and the shades were closed so it was peaceful in our house. I just remember being together. Sharing that excitement. So we went.
Matt will tell you that one of the funniest things was the night prior to them inducing me. It was sort of like a hotel stay. We got to order what we wanted from their special 'maternity' menu. They offered me food and then "something to help me sleep" as they were going to have me up at 5 am to start the medicine to induce my labor. I said "YES!". They literally gave me a shot in the butt and I was asleep not even 5 minutes later!
They started the medicine to induce my labor the next morning. My family was there. The contraction started. I clearly remember Matt being there and being so calm. Of course.
I remember my dad. He propped himself right next to me and would tell me when the contractions were coming as he had figured out by the printout when they were to come...a very DB thing to do. My mom was there, of course. I wouldn't have it any other way. My calming, caring spirit taking care of me and holding my hand.
Anyway, long story short (I could make this SO long). Ella was trying to come out but my body wouldn't let her so they decided to do the C-section. Everyone had just gone home from visiting and Matt had to call them back in.
The surgery was scary for me and I had all sort of weird reactions to the meds but Ella came out...well, they went and got her. And she was perfect. No squashy head. I didn't get to hold her until later in the night. That moment was perfect. A very personal moment. She was instantly my buddy.
Being home was the weirdest experience of my life. In the hospital, everyone takes care of you. The nurses were so caring and helpful. Now it was just Matt and I and A BABY! We had NO clue. But we did it. And I think we did it pretty darn well! (It's your family and it's the only one we've got so you have to do it well :)) We have a lot to learn but thanks to our families and our own common sense, we will do it.
There hasn't been a day that hasn't gone by that I haven't thanked God for that little being that is sleeping in her crib in the other room. She is an angel.
Tonight, Matt called me outside to look in the field next to our house. It was dark but the moon was out...almost full so it cast a beautiful glow over the field. Then suddenly there they were. A thousand lightening bugs! I said to Matt, "I bet this time last year they were here. We just didn't notice them and they were welcoming Ella to the world". I imagine it all happened like that. Like a thousand little fairies flying around speaking their secrets to her spirit and filling her full of hope and love and peace. That's a nice way to imagine the beginning of such a beautiful life. We are all so blessed. Happy Birthday Baby Girl!
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